Bullying

Lately I hve been seeing on the news and in the newspaper kids killing themselves because they were bullied. Something really needs to be done about this. No child should die because of some insecure ignorant person. There's no excuse for a child to be mean to another child.

Children only do what they see or what they are taught. Parents need to start punishing their kids when they hear about their kids tormenting another child. Parents need to make their kids see what it feels like to be bullied. Entirely too many kids are dieing and it has to stop.

I am a person who was bullid as a child and I have to be honest; if I had a gun back then I would be in prison right now. I thank God every day that I wasn't able to get my hands on a weapon. But I did try to commit suicide, and again; I thank God it didn't happen. I am here to give my story to those who really need to hear and read it.

There needs to be some type of dialog to make sure this stops. It's really gettig out of hand. Our kids are our future and when they are all gone where will we all be? Time to do something.

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Peace Of Mind

Lately I've been thinking a lot about my life and what I want from it. I've been in love. I met my first love at the age of 28 yrs old. We were together for two years. Things were good and bad between he and I. At times I felt like he was cheating on me because he never spent time with me. He would talk to other women. He would flirt with other women. And the sad part is I keep taking him back. I always stay. I don't know what's wrong with me. Things just have to get better and I don't how things will. I am always prayerful and I leave it up to God. But I do try and do my part to make our relationship better but one person can't do it all by themselvs. Things just have to get better or we won't last long.

Life is too short to stay in an unhappy situation.

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Love and Hip Hip: Atlanta

I watched Love and Hip Hop: Atlanta

I like the show. I like some of the people on the show and I dislike some of the people on the show. Some of the drama is just violent and that's what I don't like. 

K. Michelle is a really strong woman. You can tell she's been through a lot. She's trying to get back on track. She's trying to get her life back to where it was. I have to admit; there was a long period of time when the world didn't hear or see her for a very long time. She has a really beautiful voice. I love her music. I do have to say though; she do needs to calm down just a little bit. When it comes to Karlie Redd; she needs to think long and really hard before re-acting because, it will get her in a world of trouble next time. Deep down I do believe Micky Wright whooped her ass over a period of time. I feel like the first time he hit her; he should have gotten himself some her like Chris Brown did. Instead; he kept on abusing her. Everybody who has an opinion on this wasn't in the room or around when the situation happened. And those people who are calling her out of her name really needs to stop doing that. She has a child that she's raising and one day that baby won't be a baby anymore and he's going to see and hear everything people have said. People need to show some empathy. Start putting themselves in her shoes and think what they would do if they were in her shoes. I'm just saying.

Rasheeda was my girl in the beginning. That girl was off the chain to me in the beginning. It was like she was good friends with everybody. But in the end; I didn't like her anymore. She disrespected her husband to no end. And she didn't care how she treated him. She turned on K so hard. She couldn't take the heat so she bailed. Micky was probably threatening her the reason she stop being friends with K. Michelle. Because in the beginning she was on K's side and all of a sudden she stopped believing her. Now; every where you turn Rasheeda is talking crap about K. She's only repeating what other people have said about her. She's not even original when she's calling K insulting names. Say something nobody else has said. Her brain is too small to come up with her own insults. Something bad is going to happen to Rasheeda and I don't wish it on her at all. But karma is a real bitch. When you mess with one of God'children; he's watching everything. And Rasheeda is messing wiht one of God's children. She needs to really stop. 

Stevie needs to be shot for the way he has treated Mimi. From what I've seen on tv; Mimi seems like a good lady and is really trying to do what's best for her and her daughter. And the way he has done her is really wrong. In my opinion; I think she needs to just be by herself for a while. Refocus and just reflect on what it is she wants from her life. Because to be honest; Stevie seems like he's bad news. 

Joseline don't care what she does and who she hurts. I don't believe from one second she didn't know that Stevie and Mimi were a couple. The way she was acting; she had to have known he had a woman and she was just the side chick. Joseline looks like she's a man and if she wasn't born a man; she's really done something to herself to look really manly. In my opinion; she should have been arrested for punching on Stevie in the way that she did when they were in counseling because, if he had of done that to her he would've been put under the prison. So what makes her so special that she gets away with doing what she did. I mean really! She's going to meet somebody who's bigger and badder than her. They will whoop the hell out of her if she don't calm herself down. Joseline is a bully and a thug. She needs to really humble herself. All that she's been through in her life should make her a better person but it hasn't. It's only made her hard and just evil and mean spirited. That's not a good look for a woman.

Karlie Redd is so conceited. She walks around like her shit don't stink. She needs to go. I don't know what's wrong with her. She loves to try and put people down just to make something of herself and that's not the way to make it in the world. She needs to humble herself and really realize that when somebody tries to help you; you say thank you. And not always be about you. Benzino did what he could for her and she didn't appreciate nothing that he did for her. I see why he was mad her all. He had every right to be mad and have an attitude towards her.

Erica is my girl. She was down for her business no matter what. She worked hard to provide for herself and her child. I like that about her. She wants to be a role model for her daughter. That's a very good thing in my book. That's what you're suppose to do. You're not suppose to depend on a man for everything. And she didn't depend on Scrappy for nothing. I like that. When she needed his help she asked for it. Everybody needs help every once in a while. And she wasn't ashamed to ask for it. I felt so bad for her when scrappy wasn't treating her right. You could really see that she was a woman that was really hurting. I'm glad that she's finally happy and she got the man and the ring. 

Mimi is a survivor. She has something in her that won't let her be down for too long. No matter what happens to her; she's going to find a way to be ok. And I like that about her. No matter what Stevie does to her she will bounce back. I pray for that woman. She has a lot to deal with when it comes to Stevie betraying her the way he did. Her baby is so cute and with her mom by her side that little girl will grow up to be a well adjusted young woman. 

Scrappy was getting on my nerves in the beginning. I don't know what made him not want to be with Erica. For him to mess around with Shay was really messy and didn't make any sense at all. Now Shay was going around acting like she had lost her ever loving mind. I'm just glad that Scrappy now sees how good he really has it

Mama D needs to really got a legit job and stay out of his grown sons business. I hate the way she was treating Erica like she had done something to him. That man has had so many asthma attacks he didn't need no babysitter. He needed a breathing treatment. And there was nothing that Erica could do to help him. He was in the right place to get the help that he needed. Mama D looks rough and just really needs to go do something with her life to keep herself busy.

Benzino is awesom (kinda). I thought he and Karlie Redd were good together but I see now that they wasn't. I think Benzino is a good dude. But at the same time he shouldn't uphold Stevie when he's doing wrong by Mimi. He shouldn't be letting Steveie bring his whores to his home. What kind of man is that? I mean really!!!! I know Benzino has a daughter. How the hell would he feel if some man did his daughter the way Stevie is doing Mimi and some man was helping hide the secret? I just don't know what's going on in his mind. He really needs to wake up before Stevie gets him killed.

I can't wait to see Season 2 for Love and Hip Hop: Atlanta. Because I want to see what has really been going on with everybody. I know already that K Michelle has signed a new contract and I am so of her accomplishment. She has been given another chance and I hope she takes it and runs with it.

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Being Careful

When it comes to people you have to really be careful who you call your friends. You even have to be careful with family. Family is the main people to hurt you. They are the one's who will smile in your face and stab you in the back.

I've been in the world long enough to know that you can't trust any and everybody. I've had people to smile in my face while they are stabbing me in my back. You can't call everybody you meet a friend. You just have to be careful these days.

When a person shows you who they are; believe them. Because if you just sit back and just watch; you will learn a whole lot. Don't keep holding onto somebody after they've shown you who they are and what they are about. Life is really too short for all of that. You got to make sure you're happy. And dealing with drama and mess  is not a happy thing to do.

Just be happy.

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Fed Up

There comes a time when you get fed up with people. Especially a relationship that's not working. I've been in a relationship for two years and five months. And to be honest; it's really not working. I've done all I could to make it work. But what I won't do is move away with him and I don't have that commitment from him. I don't believe in shacking up with a man. I will never live with a man and he's not trying to put a ring on my finger. I will never go to another city or state to live with a man and he's not showing me any respect. There has been a lot of heart words and actions and I will never get over what was said to me in the past. I have a condition that I have to really take care of and I have an allergy that he don't care about. So I just need to move on with my life and just cleanse myself of him and just try and forget that I ever met him. Lately I have been just sitting here thinking about the past and everything that has went down. I'm just tired of feeling like I don't matter. I'm tired of decisions being made and I am not even in the loop about anything. So I am just going to move on and work on myself. Just try and move on with my life and do the best that I can to make myself a little bit better. 

I've let this man turn me into something that I am not proud of at all. Deep down I am a really angry woman and I just want to punch a serious hole in somebody. I've changed a lot since I've met this person. And to be honest; I don't like some of the changes that I've changed into. But then again; it has taught me to really stick up for myself and I am glad that I can do that for myself. 

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My Trip

I am sitting in the hotel room watching tv thinking of where I want to go today. Got an assignment that's due tonight. Had to start over because I left my flash key at home. I was so mad. But it's all good; I have nothing else to do. I needed to get out of Columbus just to get my mind right. Lately I've had a lot on my mind and going to school is really wearing on me really hard. Hopefully when I get home Sunday; I will be refreshed as a daisy. 

Going on a trip every now and then is a really good thing. It keeps you from going crazy. Sometimes you need to get away just to reflect on your life and your future. And what your plans are to make your life and future bright. That's what I am striving for in my life. I am striving for a bright future. Because I want something for myself. I don't want to depend on somebody for the rest of my life. Financially that is! Because once somebody does something for you; they automatically think that you owe them something when you don't. 

I want to be able to depend on myself and be able to make my own way. I will make it. I know that I will. God is on my side and I will make it.

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School

I'm starting over again in school. I was almost done when I found out that the program that I was taking was gotten rid of and I only had two more classes to take and I would've had my Associates Degree in Business Studies. I was really pissed. I work so hard to get my education and it always feels like something or somebody is always in my way. God knows I really do hate that feeling. But I am starting over and I am working hard to finally finish. And once I get my Associates Degree I will be done with school for a while. I  may go back and try my hand at cosmetology. If I do; I will go back to learn how to do nails. Education is very important. It will get you a long way in life. But I don't think that it should be so hard to obtain. I've been  trying for a long time to get my Associates Degree and in the end it will all be worth it. God knows it like I know it. 

Health

Hello Again!

Sorry that it's been so long but I have really been busy. My mind has been on a lot of things recently and I am just trying to get my head right. The reason for my first blog of the year is to really tell ya'll to take your health seriously. You only get only body and it doesn't need to be neglected for any reason. Always make sure that you check yourself out. Getting check ups is really important. Don't let nobody tell you you can't have a procedure done because you're not the right age. That's a bunch of bull. Cancer don't have an age stamp. AIDS don't have an age stamp. HIV don't have an age stamp. Get yourselves checked out people. Take care of yourselves so you can be here for your loved ones.

As always love one another and treat one another with the utmost respect.
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