Fed Up

There comes a time when you get fed up with people. Especially a relationship that's not working. I've been in a relationship for two years and five months. And to be honest; it's really not working. I've done all I could to make it work. But what I won't do is move away with him and I don't have that commitment from him. I don't believe in shacking up with a man. I will never live with a man and he's not trying to put a ring on my finger. I will never go to another city or state to live with a man and he's not showing me any respect. There has been a lot of heart words and actions and I will never get over what was said to me in the past. I have a condition that I have to really take care of and I have an allergy that he don't care about. So I just need to move on with my life and just cleanse myself of him and just try and forget that I ever met him. Lately I have been just sitting here thinking about the past and everything that has went down. I'm just tired of feeling like I don't matter. I'm tired of decisions being made and I am not even in the loop about anything. So I am just going to move on and work on myself. Just try and move on with my life and do the best that I can to make myself a little bit better. 

I've let this man turn me into something that I am not proud of at all. Deep down I am a really angry woman and I just want to punch a serious hole in somebody. I've changed a lot since I've met this person. And to be honest; I don't like some of the changes that I've changed into. But then again; it has taught me to really stick up for myself and I am glad that I can do that for myself. 

Love
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    Life

My Trip

I am sitting in the hotel room watching tv thinking of where I want to go today. Got an assignment that's due tonight. Had to start over because I left my flash key at home. I was so mad. But it's all good; I have nothing else to do. I needed to get out of Columbus just to get my mind right. Lately I've had a lot on my mind and going to school is really wearing on me really hard. Hopefully when I get home Sunday; I will be refreshed as a daisy. 

Going on a trip every now and then is a really good thing. It keeps you from going crazy. Sometimes you need to get away just to reflect on your life and your future. And what your plans are to make your life and future bright. That's what I am striving for in my life. I am striving for a bright future. Because I want something for myself. I don't want to depend on somebody for the rest of my life. Financially that is! Because once somebody does something for you; they automatically think that you owe them something when you don't. 

I want to be able to depend on myself and be able to make my own way. I will make it. I know that I will. God is on my side and I will make it.

Love
  Live
    Life

School

I'm starting over again in school. I was almost done when I found out that the program that I was taking was gotten rid of and I only had two more classes to take and I would've had my Associates Degree in Business Studies. I was really pissed. I work so hard to get my education and it always feels like something or somebody is always in my way. God knows I really do hate that feeling. But I am starting over and I am working hard to finally finish. And once I get my Associates Degree I will be done with school for a while. I  may go back and try my hand at cosmetology. If I do; I will go back to learn how to do nails. Education is very important. It will get you a long way in life. But I don't think that it should be so hard to obtain. I've been  trying for a long time to get my Associates Degree and in the end it will all be worth it. God knows it like I know it.