Being Called A Ho

As a person who touched as a kid; it is very triggering for a man to call me out of my name for no reason. 

It is not cool to be there for a person who you think is cool with you only for them to call you a derogatory name all because you answered a question and expressed feelings. But let it be somebody else; they would never be called out of their name. They would be treated with the utmost respect and dignity. No questions asked. 

I never publicly embarrass people that I am close to. I keep a lot of shit to myself and suffer in silence. It is just not right to be called out of your name as a black woman in order to be hurtful and put me down. It is not fair or right. I just want the respect that I give.

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Shooting Your Shot

 Three years ago I took the risk of shooting my shot and all I really wanted was to see if we had any chemistry with one another. Sex never crossed my mind. Don't get me wrong; but if it happened it just happened. I was not aiming for that though. I just wanted to sit at a time with food and music to have am intimate conversation with this person. 

Needless to say; he never validated my feelings. For three years all he did was shit on my feelings. Every woman he had sex was thrown in my face. He never really cared about how I felt because what I felt never mattered to him. 

For three years I have tried so hard to get rid of the feelings I have had for him. Only lord knows it has not been easy. It took a lot for me to open up and tell my feelings. As shy as I am; it is really hard for me to open up and not be judged for the way I feel. It's all good! This my first and last time telling a man how I feel. It only brings you heartache and you being shitted on.

Love Live Life!!!!